Today, Part 5

Today was a rush of lukewarm, cold, and comfortable–a pleasurable mix of love, life, and work.  Today my song dimmed to a hum, but the melody remained.  I smiled, and I meant it.  You laughed.  We sat in warm silence together, the two of us, separate and joined.  I saw your light, and it made me feel new again.

 

Millie

Today, Part 4

Today, I lived so vividly the memories still bounce wordlessly from cell to cell, laughing, dancing, yelling for my attention.  Today, my heart thrummed happily in my chest, each beat reminding me why I love this world and everyone in it so very much.  Today, there was no time for nostalgia or regret–only peace.  Peace and laughter.

I loved today.

 

Millie

Today, Part 2

Today, memory called me back to the start.  Your face called to me like it hadn’t before, and suddenly it all came rushing back–the laughter, the flights, the bliss, and how quickly we learned to forget about each other.  You went your way, and I went mine.  On days like this I wonder at the existence of “meant to be” and quietly put the past to rest.

You’re not here for me to think about anymore.  Not today.

 

Millie

Today, Part 1

Today, it feels like the whole world is moving, but I’m stuck here, standing still.  Unfinished paperwork and dirty laundry pile up like mountains around me, and all I do is stare, hoping by some miracle of God they will go away on their own.  I can’t turn to my normal vices.  Food tastes bland, hunger is a far more appetizing substitute.  Music is too loud, too abusive on my delicate ears.  So what can I do?

I can write this, to you.

 

Millie

What Happened to Millie?

Hey all,

It’s been quite a while, hasn’t it?

The truth is, since the new year began, things have gotten insane–in many ways.  I won’t discuss the specifics of anything because I feel it would detract from the focus of the blog, but suffice it to say, there’s been so much stuff going on that writing has become, annoyingly, a relatively low priority.  I’m trying to change that and find more time to write, but it’s difficult.

In light of how long it’s been since my last post, I’m going to share my progress in different areas of my artistic life and my ideas for the future.

#1: The Screenplay

This is sort of a good news/bad news situation I suppose, but I have a very optimistic view of it.

The good news: my ideas for the screenplay have been even more solidified since winning NaNoWriMo 2016, and I’m confident that I’m on the right track.

The bad news: like I mentioned before, it’s been very difficult to write recently, so actual progress on writing the screenplay has been put on hold.

In general, I’m excited for what the screenplay will become.  I’m planning on making it into a web series (instead of a full-length movie, as I had initially planned), and I have been embracing more non-traditional methods of storytelling and applying them to my writing.

#2: Writing in General

As stated over and over again in this post, I have had NO TIME.  It is actually crazy how little time I have had.

In the few moments I’ve been able to steal to write, I’ve been working mostly on poetry and flash fiction–basically, anything I can start and finish in a small amount of time.  I am planning on participating in the upcoming Camp NaNoWriMo, but with my schedule being the way it is everything is still very tentative as far as writing is concerned.

#3: Visual Art

It’s been pretty “meh” on this front since October or November, but I’ve been trying to step it up recently.  I’ve been working on a few portraits using acrylic paint, a medium I usually shy away from.  It’s been fun to try new things.

I also invested in a large set of Prismacolor brush-tip markers, something I have been fantasizing about for years.  I’m still getting used to using them, but I’m sure with practice I’ll learn to adore them as much as I do my Prismacolor colored pencils.

#4: Music

I have a complicated relationship with music, and in the past few months I’ve been intentionally avoiding music-making.  However, several instances over the last month or so have shown me that I should probably start composing again.  I never thought I’d see the day.

I’m going to try to work on some new pieces to hopefully be used in the soundtrack of my screenplay.

 

That’s basically it.  I’m very tired right now, so I apologize if this post was a little less eloquent than it could have been.  I hope all of you have been coping well with everything that’s happened worldwide in 2017.  I wish you all the best.

 

Millie